我的故事
MY STORIES
I have thought about writing my own stories, I used to write my journals so I
今天是真正有时间坐下来写自己的故事拉。好长一段时间以为自己一个普普通通
have some information. But I didn't do that, because I am a really normal person
的孩子，常问自己能有什么可写却还能叫人欣赏的？其实现在明白拉，每个人都是天
in this huge universal, I do not have a lot of specialties to share with you guys.
上的一颗星星,不管他多么的平凡，但是都值得纪念。
Now, I understand, everybody in the world signs a star in the sky, no matter how
normal you are, we still have our own memories which can not be found a same.
---Beibei
---李思柳
I am a luck girl. I was born in the new world, no war, full of peace. I had never
我算是一个比较幸运的人，出生在新中国，没有经历过磨难更别说吃过什 么苦.
experienced some difficulties, so I didn't know how it was before I came to Ca.
从小只是回衣来伸手，饭来张口；虽然有点夸张，但是是事实。但是爸爸妈妈从来不
I was a middle-level student, never was treated as a excellent student. I was lazy
娇惯我，这是我一辈子要感谢的。正是这样，一直以来虽然比较懒惰，但从来遇到困
and most important thing was I had never cared about anything. I just went to
难 都不会被吓爬下。从小不在乎的我，属于那种自认为不苯但从来没有勤奋过的人.
school everyday and did my homework, that it's. When the other students were
学习一直是懒懒散散， 所以基本上没有进入过什么好学生的行列。其实，我觉得自
working on their books, I was sleeping. But nothing was bad, cause if I had been a
己 这样的人, 是天生的懒人，不适合学习。所以说，当别人挑灯苦读的时候, 我早早的
excellent student, now I should have been sitting in a famous university in China,
就进入梦乡拉.其实人就是这个样子，如果不是因为我当初成绩不很理想，没有考 到
not here in Canada. If I had been a good student, I wouldn't have met the person
好 大学的话，我就不会有今天的这一切。。。。。。
---Jinxiang who is my lover in my whole life. Especially in the future.
After took the university entrance exam in China, my parents became more
高考结束后，爸爸妈妈开始为我的将来操心拉，其实他们是一直为我操心， 虽
care about my future. Actually they always cared about me, but just I had never
然我从来都没有在乎过。他们告诉我:蓓蓓啊，这将来打算怎么办那？我也迷 茫，心
cared about myself. They asked me, "Bei bei, have you ever thought about your
理没有底，正好机 会来拉。爸爸的好朋友在郑州搞留学中介，他推荐我办出国学习.
future?" I told them," No, never." I knew I should have done a good job, I should
我开始很激动，后来，慢慢的想拉很多，再后来，自己竟然变的处事不惊拉,不会对
have known a lot, but I hadn't done. Anyway, a new chance was coming, one of my
任何事情作出反应。因为经历过拉很多思想斗争以及变化，不管将来怎么样，我还是
father's best friend told me I could choose to go aboard . I hadn't dreamed to go
我---不在乎的我。
out before, temporarily, I was looking forward to see the world outside, I was
dreaming the life I hadn't experienced. I used to daydream, but during that time, I
did too much :). Things always strange, after a series things happened, I had no
feeling about anything. I knew no matter how completed the world was, I won't
change. Me, I was still Beibei, nobody would change my life. anyway, nothing is
certain, it did change my life.
After I decided to apply, I went to another high school for studying and
决定出国拉，一边准备相关的手续，一边做好最坏的准备,所以我来到拉县一高
waiting. That was my fate, I met my lover who totally changed my life.
复读。正是这次复读，让我结识拉靳翔 ---至今让我觉得可以陪伴我一生的人.
The first time I went to that school, I didn't like it. It was a high school which
刚到县一高，什么都不适应，吃饭没有荤的，每天都是单一的饭菜。所以，我
was not allowed students went out during the week, but had 2hours break on
经常逃课回家吃好吃的，想来也很可笑。我有一寝室好友，性情甚象男生，名字叫光
Sunday. It was horrible, I couldn't eat delicious food there ,so I always played
光。啊光和我算是常常一起吃饭什么的，因为她本人喜好发表意见，所以经常能当听
hooky to eat in my home. It was funny. I had a good friend whose name was A
众的就我拉。啊光有一初中同学叫靳翔，他们都是以前市二中的，所以既然同学吗，
guang. She had a classmate named Jinxiang, they were middle school classmates.
交往自然频繁拉一些，我也跟着整天当观众。一来二去，自然接触也不少，后来我们
They met in the high school, so they were keeping a good relationship with each
也成拉好朋友，有什么事情，自然是互相帮忙。比方说搬教室，靳翔人比较高180
other. I always talked and ate with them, so I had already found I like him. He was
CM，所以我就找他帮忙搬桌子什么的。平时我们早上中午睡觉起来洗脸什么的，总
high, so I always asked him to help me and our relationship was good too. He was
是约拉一起。其实已经对他有 不错的感觉。其实他人很好，属于那种有点自傲但是
a nice guy who worked so hard. His favorite subject was physics, but he got a
从来不会不谦虚的人。后来因为和他高中的同学高歌坐同位，所以对他了解的很 多
really high chemistry mark in the last entrance exam. He was a basketball player,
拉。他在高考其实考的不错，只是不甘心只上拉大专线，他想考名牌。他化学很 不
he was crazy about basketball. In order to play basketball, he always forgot to
错，听高歌说他高考化学考拉145（满分是150）。而且他平时学习不喜欢偷懒，很执
eat during the supper time. Actually he was a good basketball player. His body
着.要命的是他喜欢打篮球，特别喜欢，每到下午自习放学，他都不去吃饭，跑到篮
was not so strong when he was in the middle school, cause he never did some
球 场就开始征战拉。常常是打到快上课，然后匆忙的去买点火烧加菜。呵呵。其实说
exercises. But he became interest in basketball in the second year of high school,
这么多，都是我最喜欢他的地方。到拉2001年春节的大年初四，就是我们第一次约会
he was so good during one year, he became the best. When I knew that, I was
的日子。他邀我出去一起看电影，心理特别的高兴，然后,我们开始拉我们的艰苦而
really like his courage. What did I say were what he attracted me. The first day
幸福 的爱情。恋爱的日子总是充满拉甜蜜；还记得初吻的莽撞和激情，那时我17岁。
we went out together was Jan 27th,2001. He asked me out and I agreed. We went
我们一起吃饭,一起学习，一起回家。其实我们真的和其他人不同，因为我们都知道
out to see some movie, may because we were nervous, I just remember we sat
为将来，一定要学习。虽然我还是没有用尽全力，但是在他的督促下，我也开始努力
together, talked together. The most important thing was I asked him to warm my
拉。老师好象也看出来拉什么，免不了要管，后来我们见面的次数就不那么频繁拉
hands, he took my small hands between his two big hands, I was
（其实
说好拉，见面吃饭还躲在小饭堂的后面）。他有很多朋友，我没有。所以我好羡慕
他。慢慢的，我也了解拉很多他的故事；慢慢的，我也喜欢上拉篮球。后来我才知
道，其实他是有篮球天分的。他初中时体质很差，经常感冒什么的，也从来不喜欢锻
炼。到拉高中， 偶然接触拉篮球，真正打球好象在高二把，到拉高三，他的篮球已经
非常棒拉。他说他长高是因为有篮球的功劳，我觉得半信半疑，不过也开始跟他学打
篮球。从投球开始，不，应该是运球，掰球开始；慢慢的，我真的很喜欢拉。我更喜
欢看他打球；其实他的愿望是当一名攻击后卫，象乔丹那样的。我觉得他平时打球特
别棒，但是有时候上场拉，不如平时发挥的好。不过其实算是很不错的拉，他中场投
球很准，几乎没有失手过，看他进球的 感觉比自己进好高兴。他是NO。1。我们也有
拉共同的明星--乔丹。我们一起讨论乔丹，我们欣赏他的球技，更欣赏他的乔丹精
神--领袖精神。时间过的好快，幸福的时光总是很短暂，我等来拉自 己一年前盼望的
签证，这时候却不想走拉。
告别亲人的感觉很残酷。18岁，我开始拉自己新的生活--不同的生活。在回忆
里，我度过拉一个又一个夜晚。有时候 哭红拉双眼，最后看到的，还只有自己。尝试
新生活需要勇气，我知道。我长大拉！爸爸妈妈告诉我，靳翔告诉我，朋友们告诉
我。我也觉得是。学习开始努力拉，生活也开始充实拉，信念没有变，我只是多拉份
自信。我现在性格变的开朗拉一些，尤其到拉蒙特利尔之后，我交拉很多朋友，非常
开心。马上就快20岁拉，17岁的激情也被磨平拉，剩下的是我对未来的无限渴望和追
求。很多人说羡慕我，我说，其实我现在拥有的只是花父母的钱买来的一次新生，总
有一天，我回成为自己的骄傲， 也让那些关心和支持我的人为我骄傲！
日子在一天天过，自己生活的日子已经过去拉一年半拉把。对家的思念也在与日
俱增。朋友问我，在这里找男朋友拉吗，呵呵，这个问题只有一个人能回答，他就是
靳翔。他说，他永远都相信我，因为他了解我。我说，如果我背叛拉爱情，没有人还
能够坚持他们的爱情。为的就是当初许下的承诺，
--- 一生只爱你一个
我的爱情为的是我的明天，不管明天怎么样，我们不都是在努力？ 很喜欢他写信摘抄
的那首诗，
当蜘蛛网无情的查封拉我的楼台；
当余烬的灰烟叹息着贫困的悲哀；
我依然固执的铺平失望的灰烬；
用美丽的雪花写下 相信未来。
是啊，我相信未来，大家那？希望今天的我，明天能够潇洒的站在世界的窗口向你们
招手；希望明天的我，能够带着昨天的 梦飞翔。
相信未来！
---写在我们爱情2周年纪念前
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